Our talks Sunday in church centered around forgiveness. I am angry with Ray for not being honest and telling me he was married. I am angry with LaVerna for not telling me as well. I had told her I couldn't forgive Ray, but I was able to let go of the hurt and anger before sacrament and to ask the Lord's forgiveness for my bad feelings.
I called mom last night and told her I was able to forgive Ray. Now, I just have to move on. Now I just have to let all of the old hurts and disappointments go.
I am praying that if it's God's will he will bring someone worthy into my life. I don't like being alone.
Monday, July 26, 2010
Friday, July 23, 2010
Pioneer Day Parade
Both Hayley and April are in the Pioneer Day Parade. We are going to watch it tonight.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Eclipse
Wendy, April and I went to see Eclipse. It was a very good movie. After the stress of the past week, it was good to get out of the house and relax a bit.
It has been a hard week
Bob is not doing well at all. He does have lung cancer. They put in an umbrella stint to try and catch any more clots; hopefully prevent them from going into the lungs or the the heart. Last night he had a mild heart attack. Today his kidneys are shutting down. Mom didn't go into detail about what she and Lynda decided about taking him off of the ventilator. Mom was so tired when she called that she said she was unplugging everything, going to watch her movie and going to bed.
Friday, July 9, 2010
Painful heart
"Only love can break a heart. Only love can mend it again." but, how long does it take to find love again? I like my independence. It's the loneliness I don't like.
My home teacher asked me the other night if I thought I would get married again. I told him if it's the Lord's will, I will.
I have to learn not to be so selfish and self-centered, but being Bi-Polar, that's what we are.
I wish I knew why it's easier to feel hurt, hate and anger than love? I guess the stronger emotions are easier to feel, but you can't live with the extremes forever. I would like not to feel so numb or so pain filled all the time. How to find a happy medium...
My home teacher asked me the other night if I thought I would get married again. I told him if it's the Lord's will, I will.
I have to learn not to be so selfish and self-centered, but being Bi-Polar, that's what we are.
I wish I knew why it's easier to feel hurt, hate and anger than love? I guess the stronger emotions are easier to feel, but you can't live with the extremes forever. I would like not to feel so numb or so pain filled all the time. How to find a happy medium...
Genealogy
I have found the list of information I was looking for: RootsWeb.com
http://wc.rootsweb.ancestry.com/cgi-bin/igm.cgi?op=GET&db=:2470689&id=I135
http://wc.rootsweb.ancestry.com/cgi-bin/igm.cgi?op=PED&db=:2470689&id=I135
http://wc.rootsweb.ancestry.com/cgi-bin/igm.cgi?op=REG&db=:2470689&id=I134
http://wc.rootsweb.ancestry.com/cgi-bin/igm.cgi?op=GET&db=:2470689&id=I137
http://wc.rootsweb.ancestry.com/cgi-bin/igm.cgi?op=Search&includedb=&lang=en&ti=&surname=hughes&stype=Exact&given=thomas&bplace=odessa%2C+tx&byear=&brange=0&dplace=&dyear=&drange=0&mplace=&myear=&mrange=0&father=&mother=&spouse=&skipdb=&period=All&submit.x=Search
http://wc.rootsweb.ancestry.com/cgi-bin/igm.cgi?op=GET&db=:2470689&id=I135
http://wc.rootsweb.ancestry.com/cgi-bin/igm.cgi?op=PED&db=:2470689&id=I135
http://wc.rootsweb.ancestry.com/cgi-bin/igm.cgi?op=REG&db=:2470689&id=I134
http://wc.rootsweb.ancestry.com/cgi-bin/igm.cgi?op=GET&db=:2470689&id=I137
http://wc.rootsweb.ancestry.com/cgi-bin/igm.cgi?op=Search&includedb=&lang=en&ti=&surname=hughes&stype=Exact&given=thomas&bplace=odessa%2C+tx&byear=&brange=0&dplace=&dyear=&drange=0&mplace=&myear=&mrange=0&father=&mother=&spouse=&skipdb=&period=All&submit.x=Search
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